Where am I?

Wow It's been so long... I am no longer familiar with the format of Blogspot. I'm sorry for my absence. I'd say my silence was due to the madness of business ownership and Graduate degrees but that wouldn't be entirely true. Months ago I let someone down pretty badly. Someone I care about. A lot. I understand, in retrospect, that it was related to a series of mis-communicated intent and un-communicated frustration that eventually boiled over into something else. After failing so horribly; I realized that every time I posted here I was pretty much writing to her. When she told me that she didn't want to hear from me, that she (rightly) chose to be friends with people that wouldn't treat her in the ways I had(n't realized I had) been treating her...it was like a light went out. No will to write here. No need to share hilarity in this setting because she wouldn't read it anyway. ... :( Anyway, it turns out I'm the LUCKIEST person in the world. I will try my best, in all of the eccentric ways I have, to do a better job at life. yesssss

Good ...and Bad

Perks to owning your own business:
- you (technically) get to make your own hours
- your pay check is directly related to your performance (yay!)
- you're doing something different every day
- you get to build, foster and grow a "thing", which is satisfying.

Cons to business ownership:
- "your own hours" actually means waking up at 4:40 am to start working and then getting home at 10pm, to go right to sleep so you can wake up at 4:40 the next morning.
- sometimes, you have to remind people when they owe you money (so you can write your pay check).
- there is no such thing as "routine"
- small bits of your "crazy" often germinate into full-blown anxiety/ insanity/ gibbering idiocy.

Between the Bootcamps, regular classes, administration, and the leaking roof... oh and the Masters degree, I'm feeling a little... squirrel-y this week.

This makes me happy.

Jenny sent me this today.
It made me grin-- why you gotta kick so much ass Jenny?
:)